What/Who do you depict in your life

Yesterday, I was talking to a friend who I had parted ways with in high school.  We were the closest of friends since we were 3 years old, but when we got to high school, we became friends with different crowds and we parted as a result.  We got the chance to catch up with each other and I happened to mention how I've gotten saved and how close I am getting to God lately, and even praying about seminary after school.  Her reply was that she is so happy that there are still people in the world with a faith like mine.  Now, I've heard from several people at school that they admired my faith in Christ and I just told them things like "Thank you, but it's only because of God," but I don't think I ever have felt a bit of conviction for being told that until I was told that by my her. Since I've came home for the summer, I've fell out of sync with church and my quiet time.  I always said "Im getting so much closer to God, but I know it's not good enough yet."  However, since I've been at home, I've realized how truly unstable my relationship with God is.  I wake up in the morning and I watch tv, instead of praying and doing devotionals, I've had a horrible temper, and I've become lazy. 

Maybe it was because hearing a comment like my friends came from someone who knew me so well, or maybe it's because of how distant I feel from God right now, but it just made me think, who would I be if my character traits depended on what other people saw of me?  When I slammed the door in our carport earlier because I was upset with my mom, what did my neighbors think?  What did the person think a few days ago when I was gossiping about what that girl wore to the restaurant?  Did they think that I am a Child of the Almighty who tries to love people like Jesus does, or did they think that I'm just another teenager with a bad attitude who doesn't accept people for who they are?

I also started to think how strong would my faith be in God if it was determined by people I witness to?  Instead of having days like bad ones that I just described to you and having that negative affect on my faith, how incredible would it be if my everyday faith was based on what I feel when I'm at my closest to Him?  (But I will say this, honestly, I'm glad that my faith is not always like that, because I could become content in it staying at that stage instead of trying to better it.) 

I want to challenge who ever reads this to look at who you show the world, you or God?